Wednesday, December 30, 2009

读者一位朋友的blog,好喜欢这一个post.最后一句,好像一下子亮了起来

分享一下



陌生人,自出娘胎后眼睛看到的都是陌生人,慢慢知道陌生人是爸爸妈妈。之后被命运诅咒似的不断认识别的新鲜陌生人。小时候,好奇心旺盛,对每个陌生人都想知道一些,学会说话,学会发问。说话多了,话题多了,朋友多了,误会多了,摩擦多了,坦白没了。

幼稚园与小学时光最怀念,纯粹玩乐,即使哭泣也不过两分钟,便被别的陌生事情吸引,跑去哈哈大笑了。

有一天,在一群人之间看见一个会发亮的陌生人。

后来发现,原来那是爱情。


from: http://im-weekang.blog.friendster.com/

不知道stuck 在这儿是为了什么

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

今天收到林忠彪送的书,《你为什么不快乐》
非常惊讶他会送我书,而且还在短短的十大义演演出就看透了我

当忆诗给我这本书时,看着这7个字,我差点就哭了
一直都不愿正视的心情,赤裸裸地摊开在眼前

找到新的工作后,以为会开心,好些
但我好像是个不知足的天真小女孩(工作上每个人都叫我小妹妹)

读着的你快乐吗?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Wan Hao is in singapore now.



i chatted with amy i think 2 days ago.

she said my blog is not like others, posting own latest events or "updating" mood.

as i re-read my blog...alright, i admit it..that's why im announcing here, wan hao is physically located in singapore now.

and i was like dissappeared from our network ever since i worked in Mobi.

the reason being was, i got nothing much fancy happening around except meeting up with local artists, attending events and of course nannying...


when i have reached my max limit 1 day later, dear friends, by then you will see.


p/s: 1 main reason i don't do diary type blogging is, i have problem re-phrasing my sentence in expressing myself.. i got 9 for my 1119 test during form 6!!!! %^#%

Monday, October 26, 2009

爱情缺氧

你的爱情缺氧

不停的换站 不停的寻找

你的脑袋缺氧

不停的伤害 一直的寻找

我静静地为你祈祷

总有一天知道自己在做什么

满地的疙瘩 每一步都刺痛

谁人转告你 错了错了 太不应该

快快回头 在空虚的洞继续蔓延以前

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

为什么
没有想象的快乐?

错了吗?

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

他妈的

朋友们都知道我有机会就不会再跟他远距离恋爱了
当我正聊着长期远距离可能带来的负面影响时
她简单的说:“如果你跟他没了,就是没缘份咯”

真好,她的人生一切都是随缘的。
没饭吃时,都是命运弄人啊,不必自责怎么没工作

Thursday, July 16, 2009

happy....

have to make myself happy, happier, happier than what i am now!!

im happy
Im happy
IM happy
IM Happy
IM HAppy
IM HAPpy
IM HAPPy
IM HAPPY!!!!!!

what the fuck....


Tuesday, July 7, 2009

黑色快乐

迷幻的烟,沧桑的女歌手她了解我

再靠近一点,我狩猎着


别离开我,你知道我害怕寂寞笼罩

再靠近一点,紧紧拥抱

这样就够了,太多就不美


快乐的堕落,我黑色的坠落

深深的着迷,永恒的不永恒


花的香


谁有一束花 花飘的香薰得我心飘飘

花童啊花童 告诉我它的主人是谁


玫瑰花多不实际 但魔力依旧

想象每一个早晨 有你的陪伴

小心翼翼每个吻 直到我醒来

房间有你的气息 和我的花香


花瓣随风飘落满地 我变得更珍惜

花儿因阳光而灿烂 我为你而呼吸

一片片我们的爱意 亲吻每寸肌肤

你的衬衫古龙水香 每次呼吸花香


谢谢你 我们的相遇

Saturday, July 4, 2009

颜色

写下了我所有的颜色,塞进信封寄给了你
你收到了吗?看懂了吗?
还是你以为那只是随意的涂鸦

可不可以安静一分钟,聆听我放的音乐
可不可以用心一分钟,看清那不是彩虹

我涂鸦的不是彩虹
我的颜色你可以看懂吗?

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

wuu... hong leong bank, kajang called me this morning
thought finally there is a lucky star falls on me, which the loving God sent to pampered me for my endlessness housewife living style at home SINCE i graduated...(ok la, i know not only me myself is suffering)

But the story didn't goes as i expected, the lady called and ask whether i am interested in working at the counter, doing mainly transaction work....
i was actually applied for personal financial consultant, yea...i know i know, it's not any much better than counter receptionist kind of post they offered me this morning..

but i am quite dissapointed, because frankly speaking the previous interview i went, it was quite good and the manager actually said i have no problem and yet quite suitable for the job...i was really looking forward to work in bank as personal financial consultant which i resisted so much if you were offered me just 2 months ago :p
because i have started to consider banking job at a different angle, a wider prospective if compared to myself few months back then.

well, seems like i have to start sending resumes again to companies i have never thought of getting into it...haha!!

life is full of uncertainty~~
the biggest surprise would be, when you heard micheal jackson asking you:" did you know my prince's teacher, LOR WAN HAO?"
!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Wednesday, June 17, 2009

俘虏

事先声明,这不过是我无聊写的。

亲爱的朋友们不用担心的问:“你和rick怎么了?”哈哈哈

俘虏

爱不是占有 我明知故犯踏进这陷阱

多少夜等待 希望你累了还有我在

多少个夜我 抱着枕头故作坚强

多少种香水 记得我依然守候


不确定是为了 让爱还有余地

像个孩子哭泣 你依然在游戏

残忍的让自己 一天天心憔悴

等着有一天你 记起有多爱我


任由你在我身上挥刀 一刀一道刺痛

数不尽的伤痛我已经 成了你的俘虏

你只是需要更多时间 时间来想念我


我将回忆变成画面收藏

怕有一天会忘记 我们

可不可能有那天 想起我

你太迟发现自己 有多爱我

当我已经成了你 腐朽的俘虏

interview ar...

i have went for 2 interviews since i graduated.

the first interview progressed quite smoothly. but i have rejected the offer. (lazy to explain the details again and again) but overall i think it is a good company and can learn much.just that i do not have the chance to work and learn in the company.

the second interview was horrible, heart breaking but yet challenging.
actually it was my 2nd interview, interviewed by the 3rd person for the job as headhunter.
Ms. Kim, their so called boss in the company.
a woman talked super fast, think fast, and has a critical (criticism at the same time) thinking.
she smiles at you when asking questions, then suddenly her facial expression changed 180degree when waiting for your answer.
i didn't do well for the interview. i was quite nervous when i cannot answer her question asking me what is my career goal.
i have never been this nervous for my previous interview sections before.
honestly, i have under-estimate this interview section. because they only informed me that "the boss" was going to be my interviewer the second before i entered the room....!!
and i had have a relax and enjoyable interview sections with other 2 interviewers previously before this terrific experience.

of course, i did not receive their up coming 3rd interview call.
i was quite upset and feeling myself vulnerable and naive about the industry.
im weak in "sell myself" to the company.
or perhaps im too honest in answering those questions.

it has give me a big strike on my self-confident and capabilities after the interview section.
like i am no longer the wan hao me and my friends known for years,
there is nothing worth or valued about me
but just a loser...
know what?
after the 30 mins of interview, the only thing i can consider as praise was
" not everyone has a pretty and pleasant looking as you are, there are many difficult people you will need to deal with when working as headhunter."

dah.....never felt this sucks before for people's compliment on me.

Gambadeh!!! i can do it! this is just my 2nd job interview what
am i correct my friends?!!



Sunday, June 14, 2009

10个厕所之为什么

为什么
- ikea的厕所没有hanger?
- sunway pyramid 的各个厕所间里竟然会没有卫生纸?
- sunway pyramid 的厕所,当我们大号时没有得用水洗屁股?还有脸提醒我们要环保。。
- the gardens的厕所hanger放得这么高?我只有161cm好吗。。。
- KLCC的厕所这么窄小?
- Low Yat 的厕所小个便这么贵?!
- Midvalley的厕所时常坏并且不怎么干净?
- The curve的厕所夜深后总是满地的香烟和浓浓的烟酒味 ?
- 没脑筋的人要蹲在马桶盖上才能放得通顺吗?!!
- 卫生巾不好好包了起来丢进垃圾桶呢?你喜欢它的腥味啊变态

为什么不可以每间厕所都干干净净的??!!!!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

才发现科技是唯一联系着我们的人

“久了就会习惯”
好像不怎么正确

久了,感觉逐渐深刻
久了,想念逐渐贪婪
久了,开始自怜自艾
久了,开始担心你有没有好好照顾身体

这么久后,我怎么还没长大?
说好不让你担心的。。。

才发现想念时,只剩下不停地想念

Monday, June 8, 2009

我们都是零件

好像一件件的零件
交上了applicant form 后,
被分到不同的工厂等待检验,
不同的功能,就被分到不同的部门,
通过了测试,就欢迎加入大总部操作。
每个月尾操作不顺时,自然会加点润滑油滋润各个零件

不合格的,请自便回家等待下一次发落
记得省点油用

Saturday, May 23, 2009

被误解

发现自己时常会被朋友误解,是表达能力不好还是太叛逆的形象?
朋友上车,以为我吸烟
说我没吸过烟,叫我别假假
浦脚。。。以为我时常去夜店浦
以为我谈恋爱是只为当下、乱花男朋友的钱
很难养的女人(你还是我的好朋友啦)
我说我的男友是一位老男人。。哈哈,纯粹好笑而已
却以为我嫌弃rick老,这个就算了,反正证明了他真的不了解我的感情事件
有位朋友还很肯定地对我说:“如果有人递根烟给你,你肯定会吸,而且会上瘾。”
我的妈呀。。。。

太多了,说完真是太啰嗦

但我知道有身边的好朋友了解就够了
误解我的人,就让他们慢慢了解吧
可能是因为我平常总是谈吐很开放、又比中指
但跟朋友时,我只想做回自己
没必要作掩饰来表达某方面的自己
如果真没法了解,就是没缘份吧




Thursday, May 7, 2009

不可思议

刚刚读了一位朋友的blog,他出奇的自大。
怪完整个UTAR,就是没想过自我反省
他太聪明,我们都太平凡,高攀不起啊
每个人都错,因为没人认同他。

成绩不代表一切
但是可造之材是在逆境中成长的吧
写了很长的一篇,净是自己有多了不起
是啊,UTAR渺小,UTAR肤浅
Talent Night 你是在哪儿搞的啊?
oh,是你它才这么成功,对不起

我曾经跟他也不错,看了后失望的程度不小
别再想谁跟谁斗的了,谁都没获益

我不是要跟你争论些什么,反正吵架我输定 
脑筋转得不够快
但也别太自我膨胀了,你的眼光都狭窄了
适时的自我反省帮助个人成长
不停地怨、一直怨、你又得到了什么?
一点点的甘心?
或是你有多么的与众不同
是不是有海滩、音乐、电影、一架相机
人们的梦想就成真了

醒了啦、清醒点卢婉豪

Thursday, April 23, 2009

原来最想念的 是不能见面
一直醉,一直睡
一直睡,一直醉

踢踏舞的脚步都乱了
醉了率直的我最可贵
不想别人他妈的那么假

醉了我个子踏着 着迷的脚步
模糊了的背景音乐


Wednesday, April 15, 2009

快快回家,上到网了。。。
聊了几句,已经很满足
看到了照片,消瘦了不少。。。心疼。。。

消磨时间,消磨时间。。好像很忙,一如往常
不想离开荧幕太久,怕浪费了时间
时间越是催它,它越是溜得快。。。
630pm。。。4次回复
晚安了

忍着不哭,因为都明白
但还是难过,都湿了。。。

怎么我长不大的啊。。。

Monday, April 6, 2009

打小人

米奇老鼠晃不了了

打你个死人头,打你个臭小人,打你个粉身骨碎!
祝你出门被辆SatriaR3 撞死,撞你个半身不遂!
祝你上厕所没厕子,吃饭食物中毒,买套没钱找,床上遇阳痿,回家中梅毒!!!

他妈的,我们心爱的车。。。。。。


Monday, March 16, 2009

刚刚才知道的心情

复杂的心情。
是没什么大不了,
是从来都知道的,
但刚刚才知道,这种心情

远远的,我不熟系的,很陌生的
即将在另一个地方

但我还是会懂事
就给我些时间

心紧紧地

Sunday, March 15, 2009

烦躁

心情有点沮丧
但不烦躁,出奇的平静
我怕烦躁了,就一直烦躁下去
这么一来,就更烦躁了

陈绮贞功力好,《另一种的平静》
I am supposed to call AirAsia PR for my FYP interview at ..she said:"around 10am++"
i have dialed more than 7 times since 10.30am i guess...

keep calling,i am still calling...
the same irritating "du... du... du..."
started to get a bit nervous...

10am++, perhaps i should have call her at 10.10am, 10.15am or 10.16am.....
aishzzz...... i am soooo stupid!!!!

calling again...give me some miracle please~~~
waiting, waiting, waiting
the same sound irritates me

damn...no answer.

should start think of my own version of "real world practice"

p/s: while writing this post,i am really making call at the same time . feels like a busy, successful working woman with all the documents and phone on desk.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

又晃了

月很圆,黑漆漆的天空,她显得很明亮
不知在成全谁的梦

习惯是不好的习惯
我渐渐了解
不要,不想,习惯两个人去机场
一个人离去的感觉

月很圆,黑漆漆的天空,我没有很明亮
离去的背影渐渐消失
成全了谁的梦

小时候常常期待的机场
现在感觉很不友善
冷冷的看着我:“嘿嘿,我就要带走他了”
去你的,不就这一天而已

上了车,我有记得锁车门
遵守小小的叮咛

米奇老鼠又晃得厉害了

头很痛,不写了

Sunday, March 8, 2009

别在意阿娇是否天真

真的介意有多少真实吗?
一个事实有太多的谎言包庇着

不用太在意多少的真实
真的,我又没有伤害你
难道眼泪有假的吗

碰过那么多灰,一鼻子的灰
心难免有尘埃

原本的天真又没犯着你
被放大例子,天真的人怎么考虑得来

听听音乐,我的世界暂时很纯净

每个人都不想的,我们都抵抗不了罪恶
就让眼睛迷糊,请它别看得太清,要看得轻
小心的,轻轻的,带过就好

还相信事实?
你和我的事实不尽然相同

不用太在意多少的真实
我真的没有谎言

Thursday, February 26, 2009

伤心可悲

昨天回家的路上,非常认真地想了想自己的出路

不谈钱
我会什么??

45分钟的路程,没有答案

英文不好,中文普通,马来文大便
音乐不会,数学不好,交际更是差

喜欢听音乐,喜欢看摄影
其实都不会。。。

样貌普通,身材很差,口齿不灵俐

22年,我没有一技之长

不习惯这么悲观,但事实在眼前

可恩说:“有啊,写些乱七八糟的blog"

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

早上起身,穿上你买的T-shirt
睡意赶走了一点点

选了其中一个你送的包包,戴上你送的手表
看看表,时间不早了。。。

赶紧穿上我们的拖鞋
哎呀,忘了拿车钥匙,浪费了两分钟

终于坐上了黑色的SatriaR3 ,
嘿嘿,情不自禁踩多了油门

前面的车突然来个紧急刹车,吓了我一下
米奇老鼠晃得厉害

快了15分钟到学校
赶紧发了短讯给你

科室有点冷,还好有那件GAP外套给我取暖

好像就在身边一样。。。

p/s:对不起朋友们,并不想写得这么肉麻,
但想了很多天,还是写了。哈哈

Sunday, February 15, 2009

....


No need too much money
A little bit of time
It touches my heart
p/s: of course mini cooper does make me happier.haha

Friday, February 13, 2009

梦。想


音乐, 话剧, 摄影, 海边
多一杯咖啡
有没有
多一份
意志力
太多的完美旋转在脑海
惰啊
烂借口牺牲了自由
我不配
只能不着边缘的偷望

Thursday, February 12, 2009

随写

生活中自己加上音乐背景
我是自己的灯光师

当悲伤时,灯光都调暗了,koop koop island 黑暗的性感
周围一些些的红,一点点黑,邪恶的悲
太投入了,黑暗贪婪的吸取光明

太可笑了,你的悲伤不过感染了两公分

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

dad's daughter in s'pore

Is this girl looks familiar to you?
u have seen her somewhere else before, everyday in UTAR, talking to you?
yes, this picture took in somewhere in singapore.
a girl dressed well, posed confidently.
haha

BUT SHE IS NOT LOR WAN HAO!!!
when i first saw this picture at Koku's house, i was like SHOCK!!!
like seeing own reflection on the screen......!!!
AMazing!

she is a blogger, with a funny blog title ~ thebouncingbananas.blogspot.com
don't know is it because of the size of her xxx, which can bounce everytime she moves...
hahahahaha

how about you?
both of us look alike??!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

不自量力

有人以金钱和爱情相提并论
当然,有钱容易得多。但相对的,考验少了,不堪一击
两个人紧紧地挨着,心暖暖,满满的
有的人就是不明白

照照镜子,称一称有几斤两
嫌人穷之前,反省一下
嫌弃你的人多着呢
你以为你还能找到更好的吗?
省省吧

挣扎了很久该不该写,就稍稍的写了些

天公誕那晚

天公誕的那晚,莫名其妙的生闷气
随手发了短讯给朋友祝他天公誕快乐。
虽不懂有什么好快乐的

他的朋友也不开心,但哭不出,很可怜
我无聊的也不开心,但却哭得眼都肿了

我谢谢他,他不喜欢朋友谢谢他
我耍酷的回, “明白,一层膜有距离,晚安”

伤心的债主打来,看着来电显示告诉自己不要给他好过
“喂。。。”没办法对他发脾气啊
“你怎么听起来闷闷的?”
“没什么,有点不舒服罢了。”
“那别太迟睡了,快点去休息吧”
“嗯”

到头来他根本不知道我哭了。。。

一些讨厌的人

每一天反复活在万圣节 每个人厌倦没有人埋怨
光鲜亮丽的重重包装下 完成的却只是一个现象
高傲插腰以为独一无二 可怜不过被气候牵着走
餐厅内墨镜到底在干嘛 从不厌倦掩嘴微笑小淑女

我看似平凡属实你肤浅 高度自信不需名牌唇膏
以貌取人以为很有品味 他妈的你不过一样无助